Scared about who the father is.
First day of my last period was Feb 4th.. My husband and I had unprotected sex the 17th. Feb 19th my husband asked me for a divorce.. That same night, one of his best friends took advantage of me after a night of drinking. I was completely blacked out but he told me what happened the next day and says he pulled out. He apologized a thousand times and I just never said anything about it because I didn't want to make matters worse with my husband.. In a desperate attempt to fix things with my husband we had unprotected sex a few more times the next few days. Then the 22 or 23 I got drunk again and this time willingly has sex with his friend but he pulled out again. I only remember bits and pieces of the night and I feel worthless because of what I did. I found out my husband was cheating on me and I guess I just wanted to get back at him..
Jump to today, my husband begged for me back. We have started therapy and we are doing everything in our power to fix what we have broken. I still haven't told him what happened with his friend because I'm scared it will ruin everything we have started to fix. I know I should be honest with him but we have come so far from that whole mess. But now I am scared there's a chance my baby is his friends and not his. I know this whole thing is a mess.. If you're going to judge, just please don't comment. I have been miserable through this whole thing already. I just don't know what to do from here.
I know what I need to do. I know the right thing to do. He deserves the truth. I'm just terrified. I pray to God this baby is his. We've had such a rough patch but I just want our family and for us to move on from this... considering he's the only one that finished inside of me.. I really hope this baby is his. I don't know what we will do if he isn't.. But I know how likely it is to get pregnant from just the pull out method. I feel so dumb and feel so worthless. This post was mainly just to rant
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