Anxiety about baby rant

We were gonna move next month and ended up realizing we should wait a year before buying a house. I thought we'd still move to a better place but hubby is intent on staying here the one more year. Now I'm REALLY nervous because we have 3 dogs and no yard. I'll have to take them out one by one and leave the baby inside (this will be hell during the winter!) the apartments are also infested with ants. Which hopefully I can fix by spraying poison but terrified I'll wake up to 1000 ants in my baby's crib! This just isn't where I imagined my baby's first year and it breaks my heart. Thinking about taking pictures of the place to put in his baby journal and writing a quick note about how mama and papa are trying their hardest to give him the life we never had. And i hope that, that and loving him so much will be enough to make him a happy baby 💙