Im sorry in advance that this is so long. The father of my child has been a pain in my ass since day one. When we were still together, he would bitch and moan about appointments. When I was 12 weeks, I found out he had been cheating on me. He went to two more appointments after that 1. He was late and then spent the whole time on his phone (this was the gender reveal) and 2. Fell asleep during the appointment!

I've notified him of all appointments since then and he's never shown up. I am now 37 weeks and 5 days and due to be induced on July 21st.

He has argued and fought with me over everything. I HAVE to give the baby his last name but he wants a paternity test or he isn't signing anything ( he wants a test, that's fine but I'd rather him not sign anything anyway ), he told me I lied about getting gestational diabetes because that isn't something you just get, he thinks breastfeeding ends at 6 weeks so he should be allowed overnight visits then, he refuses to educate himself on anyting about taking care of a baby.

He never would text and ask how appointments went or anything, including when I was sent out to labor and delivery for complications. All of sudden he knows it's getting closer so now he wants to act like he cares and wants to be involved. He knows when I'm being induced and I've told him he's allowed to be at the hospital and see him after he's born but not allowed in the room during ( he threw a fit but accepted it ). We've tried to come up with several different parenting agreements on our own but he wants way more than I think he should get with our son being so young. ( overnight visits starting at 6 weeks, few hours everyday with him taking him away from me, every other weekend starting at 6 months, etc..) I had been calm, reasonable and rational with him until finally one day I snapped and told him that until we had something established with the court then he wouldn't see him unsupervised.

I hate this because I don't want to keep my son from his father but at the same time, I don't trust him to take care of him properly and I'm terrified I'm going to get a call that something has happened or I don't want my son going through what I went through with my biological parents, being in and out of my life when I was young because I know how it made me feel.

I worried about this awhile ago and spoke to an attorney so we have a plan set if he decides to take me to court for custody/visitation but now that I'm getting closer I worry more about this then anything.

Again, I apologize that this was so long. I just really needed to vent.