I found out I am pregnant with my second rainbow baby Saturday. And while I am excited, I am super scared too, and I know its not good for my stress level and all right now, but losing my boys was the....well extremely difficult thing to go through. After my first I went down an extremely dark path, and pretty much shut the world out. But then I had my daughter who is now 3. She makes me smile everyday even tho we are in the terrible toddler stage😂😐

And then I got pregnant with my second son and found out there was no heart beat at my 20 week checkup, had to have my labor induced again just like with my first, but this time I didn't take any pain medication, I needed to feel that pain. And I am now only 5 weeks pregnant and I am terrified of having to do it again. They have no idea what went wrong, all my tests and my sons tests came back completely normal..I am scared. I know my anxiety is getting the best of me, but I could use a friend or a bump buddy or whatever to talk to through this...if y'all don't mind...I know that y'all got ur stuff to worry about too, but maybe I can support someone and the same for me...even if its just a prayer or something...