I need motivation 😔

Marie
I'm sure we've all felt this way but for me, this cycle is draining me.
We've been TTC for 7 month (I know that won't seem long to some) we've used OPKs for the last two month. Last month I had a chemical, I had loads of symptoms last month from about 8 dpo, this month I have none at all. I'm 11pdo, 2 bfn frer (I know I'm testing too early). 
I just feel so done. I want a baby so badly but I can't keep living from month to month like this. Waiting for AF, waiting for fertile days, waiting to test... It's draining and I feel like I'm missing out on life just waiting to get pregnant!!
Sorry for rant, just needed to vent to someone who understands rather than have people telling me it'll happen when the time is right..(which by the way, timing couldn't be anymore perfect for us) 
Thanks for taking the time to read xx