Depression during Pregnancy

Asia💆🏽 • DD: 10-15 / 10-19 😊 ☝🏽️st time momma 🤘🏼
I have PTSD & seasonal affective disorder 😒 on top of that , I don't trust anybody , down to my babyfather - were not together but I'm scared to leave my daughter with him & his family when she's born but I don't want to be selfish . my pregnancy is hell 😔 nowhere near enjoyable 👐🏽 somebody pleaseee share some advice 🙃🙃 I'm literally ready to jump out a window 💯💯