Miscarriage 😩

I had a miscarriage over a year ago and I'm missing my baby so much. I was three and a half months along. I was so happy finally someone to love and care for. It made me not want to give up on life. I see babies everywhere and I always think that could be my baby. I feel so bad, a terrible because I feel like I messed up. I was getting ready to tell my mom and family. But the babies dad wasn't going to be there he told my friend to get an abortion from his first child and she miscarried and I miscarried, I just feel so bad. I just want my baby. 😭😩