I am not having sex again😳

I am 4 weeks postpartum and i am not happy with how my vagina has healed, i had a forceps delivery due to baby being distressed, i wasn't even given the chance to push myself. I also had episiotomy which they cut me a lot down there, i feel my vaginal wall is having down low and blocking the entrance to my vagina and tmiiiii! But my clit is hanging lower too, if it doesn't go back a bit or start looking better then i aint letting my partner near me again, it's making me so depressed, it's horrible😭