The nightmares have begun....you?

Let me first say, this is my 4th pregnancy. The others ended horribly. (25w,8w,&16w)

This time I have been trying to be very optimistic and not be so negative and expect the best instead of expecting the worst.

Now if only someone would tell my sleeping brain!

The nightmares have started. Last night it felt like one long awful dream. I'm just going to give you ladies some bullet points as I really don't want to remember all of it too much.

1. I was in Preterm labor and no one would even look at me at the ER or believe I was in pain.

2. I was bleeding everywhere. Like some sort of horror film.

3. The docs and nurses in my dream acted like losing my baby was not a big deal. Heartbreaking.

4. My husband, the whole dream, was "on his way" although he never arrived.

5. I felt so alone. At one point there was just me in a hospital gown in a dark room going thru the preterm labor and bleeding, all by myself. I was screaming for help, and no one came.

6. (I am getting a Cerclage in a week{in real life}) in the dream there was a string, that I could hold on to connected to the inside of my vag. Strangly.i thought if I pulled it out my whole vag would unravel. I kept trying to make the knots in the string tighter. Which would cuz me pain and more blood.

Ok to say the least,

THIS NIGHTMARE WAS AWFUL!!

I'm hoping that by writing it down it will leave my mind.

Thanks for reading ladies. How are your dreams going? You getting bad dreams?