I HONESTLY HATE MYSELF

Sooooo, there's this guy at work that I have been talking to on and off with. TOTALLY STOP, talking to him after a found out a deep secret from him and another girl. I talk to them about it discovered it really wasn't a bigger deal than it really was. Now since the other girl is out of picture completely, I wanna make a move, but trying each day I try. It seems like the more I try he become even more attractive. GOD HATES ME. I just need advice to tell him I want him without saying it to desperately. Oh yeah another problem…