I love my boyfriend. To no end. I cannot imagine my life without him. But he's been gone, and soon, he'll be gone for a long time. He's trying to get a job so he can pay to visit me. He's trying to prove to his mother he's an adult so he will be trusted again, so he can talk to me on a daily basis. Yet while he's been gone, I've gotten very, very sad. I ended up being very close friends with another guy and he says he loves me. I really care for him but I don't want a relationship. I don't want to cheat or leave my boyfriend. I know a lot of this is me missing my boy and I don't want to hurt the other guy either. I'm naturally flirty but I really don't mean to. Hopefully my sweetheart will be back soon so I can discuss this with him. I'm so scared what's happening though. I don't want to fall out of love or lose him. I want him in my life forever. It's been 8 1/2 months now, that we've been dating. I want it to last forever and for us to never have to question our relationship.