Done trying.... (you don't have to read, I just needed to vent)

After 2 years of disappointments, I'm calling quits to TTC. I'm tired of wasting money on tests, stressing about drinking too much coffee, stressing about baby dancing at the right moment, I'm done looking at stark white tests, I'm done with it all. I don't want to cry anymore. I don't want to disappoint my husband anymore. I don't want to focus on doing everything right to get a negative anymore. I feel so bad about this that I just want to rip out my uterus and throw it away since it's useless. I'm just done trying to conceive.