I made a list of things that bother me to this day

I love my mom, but my life wasn't always easy once my parents divorced she turned into a drug addict and my first born will start school tomorrow. I made a list of a few things that I really wanted more than anything from my mom as a kid that she wouldn't give me. As I typed it started to depress me because I realized some of those things seriously caused me to be a very emotional and nervous kid. 
Idk I just needed to get this off my chest...  
Some of these may sound ridiculous to you but there is a back story for it. 
I figured posting to strangers annonymously would help make me feel better.