My heart was broken today 😢

It's been a dream of mine to be able to drop down to part time once our little man arrives. I have been working at my husband to get him to cave. I finally have and my heart shattered into a million pieces when he checked insurance prices at work today for the three of us. Needless to say I would need a job just to pay for it. I feel like I have been robbed of time with my child. What a world to live in. When you make too much to get any shred of help from the government or insurance companies just to spend a little more time with your child. If we were both unemployed we would be better off. I'm sick to my stomach I'm so upset.