Calling him daddy 😒😂

Yo I am confused as fuck right now. I used to think like deep down I'd be a freak who calls my boyfriend daddy but I'm suddenly WANTING to now and I don't know whether I should feel okay or horrible lol. I'm not even sure if he'd like it but he's kinda a freak so I don't know and I'm embarrassed to bring it up. But IF I started doing that is there anything I can think or do to prevent me from feeling weird about it cause I do feel like it's something that can get me off 😂 ahhhh it would be different if I had no real close relationship with my actual father but I do and it's WEIRD. Lol y'all help me out here 😂 I'm so weird