I feel like a failure😩

So I am currently pregnant with baby #3...this is a very emotional time for me to begin with. A year ago we were planning on 3rd baby and then my mom who was 51 years old had gotten her cancer back and died a week and half later. I refused to have a baby after she died I said I was done I didn't want to have a baby my mom did not meet. Now while my mom was sick we went threw a lot of our savings because we were not working, my mom didn't have insurance, and traveling back and forth to hospice. At the beginning  of this year we found out I was pregnant. So we tried to save and what not but life happens and things come up you did not expect. My baby is due October 16th we don't have any money saved we still need a car seat and some other baby things. On top of that I don't get paid for my leave so that means no money to pay some of my bills, buy food, and whatever else comes up. I feel like I'm failing my children. I can't even enjoy my pregnancy and new baby on the way because I am so worried. He does not even have a name yet 😞 I just needed to vent