Pregnancy after loss

Im 7+1 with my rainbow baby, but im still grieving for my baby i lost at 9 weeks in November. I just cant get over that. I still miss and love that baby and still hurt and cry. Some people say when you get pregnant again it makes things easier, it fills a void in your heart. But I don't feel that. Im ecstatic to be pregnant again and im in love with this baby but im still heartbroken and feel guilty as i should be happy as shit right now. Sorry i just needed to vent and let that out. If anyone has felt this or currently feeling this please comment 😞💔