Can't control it

I'm feeling pretty empty and I can't hardly stand my life and the way I feel all the time my anxiety and depression are getting to be more then I can handle. I live far from my family with my bf and my 3 children and my depression is affecting everything....my relationship with my bf and my relationship with my kids who I love very much... I just always wanna be left alone ... I feel like sometimes I need to move back home and get help and have the support of my family, buy later they aren't very supportive. I just wanna be happy , I hate depression it is taking over my life!!!!