😭😭 feeling guilty for being upset 😭😭

Right, so I decided me & my partner we're going to try for a baby... I was so excited that I thought if I am bringing a baby into the world I need to be mature about things so I decided to let by gones be by gones and me and my friend of 7 years made up after falling out over 2 years ago! Turns out she has the same idea as me and have decided to try and have baby with her partner.. Well everything was brilliant, we were back friends, spending time together, doing what best friends so. We were so excited trying to plan a baby around the same time and thought it must of been fate that we were both planning a baby seperately but it has brought us together! Well anyway, today she messaged me and send me a picture of her POSITIVE pregnancy tests... I am really over the moon for her 👶🏼 but a part of me is absolutely gutted! We come off our contraception a day apart and she had a person straight away, I never. I am so gutted that I'm not pregnant and she is. I feel so awful but I just can't help it! I've wanted this for years and now I have to sit back and watch somebody else have the emotions that I want 😭. I'm obviously a shit friend!