36 week checkup

So that was a joke. The whole SPD thing along with loss of mucus plug, cramping, pressure, peeing much more than usual, movement but less movement and the excruciating pain with SPD and now sciatica is back. With symptoms of labor getting closer and having my first at 37 weeks, she doesn't check me at all. I don't even do a pee test at every appt. I've had one and that was at my first appt. this hospital is cheap. No I can't go to another one cause that's 1 1/2 away and I'm already so far along. I don't feel comfortable about having my baby here. It's not a poor town at all but the hospital is fucking cheap. I've had SPD for 4 weeks now and it's only getting worse. He's just gonna fall out. The whole not getting checked thing worries me because I'm scheduled for a csection September 7th and my due date is September 10th. Like my body is gonna make it that far. Why can't they discuss options for 37 weeks, ultrasound to get an estimate of size and whatever else. Why should I have to suffer and not be able to walk without crying to go pee or make myself something to eat. My boyfriend works 9-6 and sometimes after hours because of what his job does. I can't take care of a toddler alone right now. No one plans this. The least they can do is talk about options. We're already trying everything to ease pain but it doesn't always work. I can't do pt every day. Sit on my butt 24/7 with ice and heat. I can't sit for long or I hurt worse. Can't walk long or I hurt worse. Why leave me questioning things when there are options that can be discussed for when the time comes? Seriously, fucking Google is better than this hospital. I'm not looking for negative Nancy's saying "hold in the baby as long as he allows it" and all that bs. Yes. I know. When you say that it's like rubbing in my face breast is best. Well duh. But it's not you. No one else can feel my pain and I can't feel yours or how easy yours is going. I just wish my hospital wasn't so cheap and actually talked to me about things.