I'm just over it.. My hope of ever becoming a mother is slowly diminishing month after month negative test after negative test... The saddest part is not that I've lost the hope and dream of me becoming a mom, but that i feel like I am not going to ever give my hubby the chance to be a daddy... And he would be such a great father which makes me feel like such a dissapointment as not only a woman but as a wife. Everyone says it will happen when it's supposed to but how long do you keep waiting.. How do you hold that faith that maybe one day you will see 2 pink lines? Bc I don't know how to keep thinking positive anymore 17 months of ttc and getting nothing but rejected is just taking its toll on me! Maybe it's because my 28th birthday is next week and I thought I would have a little one to hold by the time I turned 28... It's just a really sad emotional day for me today I guess...