I wish I had that strong urge to have my VBAC

Seems like some of the ladies on my facebook group for vbac are all gong hoe about their vbac, and I'm over here like I will try for one, but I'd have a c section again too. Husband thinks I might feel different closer to our due date.

The truth......

I'm so terrified of pushing a baby out. It's been close to 4 years since our son came, and I was terrified then. I am scared she will come on her brother's birthday. I'll be angry if she does. The not knowing when I will go into labor is stressing me put too. I wish I could peak into the future just to know what day and how she comes.

Ugh.