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Right, I needed to talk to people about this so I'm just going to get this out of my system, I had my first kiss last week (I'm 14) and I was REALLY drunk. Basically I had a free house so I invited some friends around (about 8 or 9) and I started drinking and drinking and by 6 I was mortal😂anyway I invited the boy I liked at the time and he drank and then threw up, so obviously being the host I tidied it up and looked after him and stuff and eventually it ended up with us two in my bedroom on my bed alone, I said I'll leave him to sleep and he begged me to stay upstairs so I lay down next to him and he made 'the move' and before you know it we were kissing, this went on for a good hour and a bit and people walked in etc and we're taking the piss obviously but I was drunk so I didn't really care, then the top came off but nothing else happened!!! don't worry but I just needed to rant about this next part, afterwards I felt really shit like thinking he took advantage of me because I was drunk so I was sat in the middle of McDonald's at 11 pm crying😂 with my best friends hugging me saying he wasn't and it's all fine, when we got back to my house my best friend talked to him about how I felt and after a while she came down and said Jess you're wanted upstairs, the boy then continued to tell me that he had feelings for me blah blah blah and then a week after I started to talk to him and he was like well to be honest I don't think I like you like that and I can't see anything else happening between us ever again so yeah. What the fuck is up with that🙄 I know it's pathetic but I needed to rant and get this out of my system but I need an honest opinion, was he taking advantage because I had had a few drinks?? (It was his first get with as well)