Rant, just needed to vent. 😖

I was starting to wind down with being interested in going out and drinking quite awhile before I got pregnant. So I haven't really missed it all...until this weekend.

There is a festival every Labor Day weekend in our tiny town and it's like a drunken local holiday. It's always a good time and we all often have too much fun. My plan was to just forgo the whole thing. I've never been one of those people that can go out with other people drinking if I'm not. I get annoyed, so I just don't go at all. Well I decided to go mingle a little tonight before everyone was completely wasted. I didn't get to them soon enough and people I was supposed to meet up with are already drunk and wandering around/not getting back with me about plans. I don't blame them at all, but now I've gotten annoyed and bummed out, which I was trying to avoid. I wish I wouldn't have made an attempt at all. Ugh.

I feel guilty, too, about being bummed out because I wanted to be pregnant. I usually never give a 💩 about missing out on stuff, but it has me feeling sad and left out. My brother is home from across the country, friends back that live out of state, etc. 😖