My little one has gone to heaven...

I just want to say goodbye to everyone. I lost my little one at 30 weeks. I had to give birth vaginally he was head down. Doctors couldn't tell me why he had passed away until he was born. My placenta detached from my uterus and I had an infection. I didn't tear or need stitches. My birth was very painless I was on the induction medicine for 2 hours and then my doctor decided he didnt want me to suffer all night so he stopped the medicine and wanted to resume in the morning. I was 2 centimeters then while off the medicine my body decided to dilate on its own. I was in labor for 8 hours and he came out in 5 pushes. He was just 3 pounds 6 ounces. He was perfect. I cry non stop because even though the doctor said I did nothing wrong I feel like I could have done something. Im so ready to be a mommy. He was my very first baby I ever conceived. I just hope I can have my chance to be a mommy soon. I know no one can replace him in my heart. But im hoping god will bless me again.