Am I crazy??

So my period is due tuesday... I took a test last Tuesday and got a real faint but people were saying that the first response give false positives. So I kinda let it go. Well I tested throughout the week thought maybe I saw a couple faints. Glow said to go ahead and test today so I said okay 🙈 I peed in a cup dipped a clearblue. Thought I saw a faint positive. Ran to the store and bought first response. It's the only red dye I have at the closest store. So I'm sure I see faint positives. Please tell me I'm not crazy. We have been trying for a year. I have a doctor appointment Thursday ☺️♥️💯