I feel like it's just never going to happen

Well, today is Sunday and I had my first pink spotting tonight. :( it was extremely light, but there nonetheless. It looks like pink water. I have felt like I'm gonna start my period for the last 5 days. According to Glow and Fertility friend, it should arrive on Tuesday. I always spot a day or two before she arrives, so looks like she will be right On time:( I have been trying for a year and 2 months.......don't know how much more I can take. :( no matter how hard I try not to, I always get my hopes up and then seeing that pink water and spotting is so devastating. :(