RANT 😢

So last month was our first month ttc. I had been testing like a crazy person starting about a week before af was due (9/9-Friday). On Tuesday morning I got a positive. And then another. And another. Very faint lines but very obviously positive. I bought multiple brands of tests and they all had faint positives. The day before af was due I had some very light brown spotting only when I wiped. The next morning, the day af was due, I had constant dull cramps and heavy bleeding-just like a period. My mom suggested I go to the ER so I could find out quickly what was going on, so I did. They took my blood and the doctor said my levels are so low it's possible I WAS NEVER EVEN PREGNANT, but if I was, it was definitely a miscarriage and definitely very early. I asked him how it was possible to have so many "false positives" if I wasn't pregnant  and he said sometimes hormones just so weird things? It's just so frustrating and I feel stupid and left without any clear answer.