Chemical Pregnancy

Dear Mama's,

I write this with a very heavy heart.  I have been told I'm having a chemical pregnancy.  My levels were 450 five days ago and 600 something today.  After bleeding for 2 days I knew it wasn't right.  

My husband and I are strong and healthy and will get through this difficult time, as we were so excited.  I would be 5w1d today and still would've have had my first u/s until 2.5 more weeks.  In a way, I'm glad to know now rather than later.  It's amazing our bodies are able to carry and deliver babies, yet it's also a miracle that our bodies can detect an abnormal pregnancy so early and prevent it from developing into something more at times.  Thankful for that.  Thankful that we were able (so early, 1.5 months TTC) conceive naturally.  

My doctor is wonderful and counseled me over the phone, giving me lots of hope for the future.  Even told me we are good to try naturally as soon as we're ready to again.  We laughed a little, he prescribed me a bottle of wine for tonight ;) and I had told him I have an unopened box of opk I would be opening next week.  It's hard to be completely light hearted, I still have been randomly balling my eyes out at the drop of a hat.

In other news, my BEST friend and I were going to be pregnant together.  She is 3-4 weeks ahead of me, hearing heartbeat today, and also sharing her news on social media later.  I'm beyond excited for her, of course that makes it harder today.

So much love, 

Xx