37 weeks....

So.. this is my third and final baby. I have 2 kids that are 9 and 7 from 2 previous relationships. So this is my third with a third dad. When I found out I was pregnant I was so scared, and I cried and cried, then I was so happy and excited. Now that my current section is in 2 weeks, I am having mixed emotions. I feel like my fiance is pulling away from me, when I feel we should be stronger then ever. I am so scared to what the future holds. I don't want to end up doing it alone all over again as I have with my older two. I feel blag, and overwhelmed and sad and idk why. I don't feel myself, and I know a lot has to do with my hormones it just bothers me. Not to mention the amount of pain I am in, Kendall is so low I feel like she's going to fall out. I just want to be me again, and feel Joyed like I should that I am having this blessing. Well I guess rant over...