Went to find out gender left without a baby 😢😢

I just can't stop crying. I thought I was doing everything right, I thought I made it past the miscarriage stage, but nope 19w4d and find out that our baby love is gone!! How can this be? I have a gender reveal scheduled for 10/1, we are closing on our home by 10/4, the crib and bedroom is all planned out.  I just wanna scream and run far far away.  The worst part is not having an explanation as to why this happened...Now I have to prepare myself for a D&E aka abortion from what I've read. But I'm not aborting my baby I WANT my baby back. Oh God this hurts so bad 😢😢😢