traumatic birth story with a happy ending.

 My blood pressure drop rapidly and I lost my hearing and all color.  My baby's heart rate dropped.  I was shaking uncontrollably with fear.  I don't know how, but they fixed it- and things were stable but they had to turn down pitocin.  No progress.  All of it felt like it was for nothing.  Once baby and I were stable they upped pitocin again- and I finally started dialating!  12 hours later it was time to push.  Oh- also my epidural had a "window" so the pain never stopped. My husband and I finally felt excited.  We were so exhausted and happy that I wouldn't need a c section!  So I pushed like hell.  For 3 hours- until I broke down crying.  Baby was stuck halfway.  We went for a c section.  Disappoint again- I knew soon I'd have my baby- so joy again.  Until they couldn't pull her out- and the room got panicked.  I thought it was going to be the worst outcome possible.  No crying- doctors and midwife very serious.  Everything stopped.  And the anesthesiologist put his hand on me to comfort me.  Then I heard a cry- and they brought her around the curtain and onto my chest.  My husband and I weeped- and I instantly fell asleep on the

 Operating table snoring.  She was here- and safe.  Then I started hemmoraging- but that's to be expected at this point!  My beautiful water birth never happened.  I never got to pull my daughter up onto my chest.  My friends and family couldn't be there- but in the end...it doesn't really matter.  Keep your birth plans loose- you can never know what will happen or what you'll need til you're in it.