Childbirth

I am scarred for life, I'm 18 and I just finished watching a childbirth video, I hate pain, I don't think having 12 kids is a good idea now, I only want 8 kids, why must childbirth hurt so much, I am having 4 and then adopting 4 I am scarred for life now, giving birth is not fun, too much pain, how can a woman go through this pain and then be happy, I rather have a C-Section, my mom had me by c-section and my little sister, so scared now