Ok so here's the thing. I have a lot of anxiety. A lot. and I've been pretty stressed since my daughter has been born because I work the same part time job I've worked for 3 years now. and I don't hate my job, I just need to make more than I'm making. Thing is, I don't have a driver's license (I just never took my road test because I felt under prepared because no one would help me practice driving and I didn't see the point in taking the test if I knew I was going to fail. and I just have a lot of anxiety about it) and my job is very understanding and flexible with that. My boyfriend works full time 3rd shift at a factory so he pays for a majority of our expenses, but he wants me to start working full time at his factory so we can make more money. which I understand. but the job I have currently is also the only job I've ever had and I didn't even need to interview for they offered it to me on the spot and I just took it. so I've also got some anxiety and nervousness about leaving this job because it's my first job so comfort zone thing but also don't want to be away from my daughter for 8 to 10 hours a day. don't know how I'm gonna be able to pump at work? if they would even allow it? (I don't have to pump now because my shifts are only 4 hours at the most.) and I want to nurse as long as my daughter is accepting it. That's one option. My other option is stay with my work and go back to school. which I would love to, but I have no idea what I want to do and I'm not sure if I want to be in crippling debt from all the costs of college for the rest of my life. I went to a small university for 2 semesters and racked up almost $10,000 between the two loans I needed to take out. I paid of the $1000 one earlier this year, but it took over 3 years to pay it off. I don't know. driving is on my weekend agenda when I have time to practice and someone to watch my daughter so I can learn without her in the car. so I will be getting my license before the end of this year but I just don't know if I should leave my job for a factory job which would be nice financially. or if I should stay and go to school.....? ugh. it's just got me down even more. not sure exactly postpartum depression but just sad. because there's lots of things my boyfriend needs to do and improve on in himself but ever since she's been born it's always been me me me me me. you need to do this and do that and change this and change that. which I do. but he needs to do some stuff too. not to mention the fact that besides the 4 hours I'm at work I take care of the baby. which I love. but 20 hours a day with pretty much no help gets exhausting. working 3rd shift he's gone all night

sleeps all day from 7 to 3 and then leaves around 4 to go coach football. so I only see him for like 3 hours a day. unless he works overtime. then I only see him for an hour.