Just ranting..

I am 38w and 1 day today!! I only have 1 week to the day until I meet my baby girl!! I feel guilty for having mixed emotions. This pregnancy did not go how I. Wanted since it was my last, I was hoping to get pictures done and a belly cast and things like that, and I didnt. I thought she would bring my fiance and I closer and it really hasn't. I am nervous about bringing another baby into our crazy household, don't get me wrong she is loved very loved and wanted. I don't feel ready for prepared. I didn't save money like I wanted to, or buy everything I wanted either which I know doesn't really matter. I want to breast feed her, but I feel like I haven't made milk yet and worried I won't be able to. I am just a bubble of mixed emotions, and I just wanted things to feel differently then they do, but welcome to pregnancy hormones!! End rant.