When You're a Wallflower 🌷

From the amount I type on this app, you guys might think I'm really social.But I'm actually been a wallflower. I have a couple close friends that I talk to a lot and if a class is really engaging I'll answer questions and make commentary, but for the most part I'm pretty quiet in class and only really  talk to my closer friends. I am friendly to everyone and try to make conversation, but at the same time I'm always on the edge of the social fence with groups of friends (like I'm friends individually with people in a group but I feel excluded from the group, like one friend group I know has already made all their homecoming plans and I'm not invited). Thing is, I like being alone sometimes and hanging out with big groups of people (i.e. more than 5 people) is overwhelming for me, but I do want to feel like I'm a part of things.