I have never been close with my mom even though I have lived with her for the past 20 years. I'm an only child and basically and the type of person who puts others before myself and always wanted to prove everyone wrong . But 5 years ago my dads health spiraled out of control with a toe amputation, 2 heart attacks, biopsies for two tumors, only one got tested and came back. clean& then 2 years ago February he passed away. 9 months ago I feel in love with a guy but it wasn't your everyday man, he loved me for who I am and basically is an old fashion, he also puts others before himself, but he also puts the one he loves and his family is mm