Feeling down; Uplifting words?

I have convenience myself I'm not pregnant and don't want to test to save my own emotions. I haven't used any ovulation test so I don't know if I ovulated and PCOS is a bitch so who knows if it'll allow me to become a mother. I just want to be a mother already. I would take sleepless nights because of a child than having the most rest with out a child. Please God allow me to have a child. That's my only life wish.