this is BIT of a rant..

Okay. Here's a back story. I'm 15. And I'm currently in high school. I currently have a boyfriend and we are starting to get pretty serious. The problem? 
1) He absolutely refuses to wear a condom--and I told him no. I am not on birth control. So sex -- until he realizes that's the only way, is out of the question.
2) Has anyone else had a really strict mother when it comes to sex? My mom knows that I've done sexual things with guys in the past and she refuses to let me go to any guy's house. My sister lost her virginity at 14, and she got all ties to social 
media taken away for two years. 
It's kind of annoying because my mom expects me to remain virgin until marriage, and honestly, I DONT THINK THAT CAN HAPPEN.
I've even personally asked my mom if she waited until marriage, and she said she didn't. She and my dad lived in the same house during high school and she confessed that she and him did sexual stuff in his room. 
No, my mom is not a teen mom; she has my sister at 22, and me at 25. 
I'm just kind of in a difficult place right now. I mean, should I do it anyway? I've been so curious about sex, especially since I started high school and everyone was doing it.
I don't feel pressured to have sex. I feel pressured to stay a virgin.. and sometimes I feel so guilty because I think about having sex anyway, but I feel like it's what I want. But I don't wanna destroy the relationship between me and my mom and get in trouble..
Has anyone else felt this way, or can relate? 

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