Ttc on birth control

Ok i am almost 36. Ive been ttc since early 2015 and i wasted time in a depression bc im on medicaid and i went to a bad obgyn last year who did nothing no tests no progesterone supplements and told me to go to a fertility specialist now anybody shallow who thinks i shouldn't have a baby bc im on medicaid get off my post i slapped u in the mouth through my phone. People like you make me want to get pregnant more. Anyways back to the story. I called the fertility specialist only to find out they dont take my insurance and have no grants nothing. I called the regular ob doctor back and made another appointment for testing bc my insurance didnt cover the specialist and went back and he told me i wasnt due for a pap yet like wtf? So i reported him. I lost a baby at 5 weeks in March and one at 4 in Sept. Theres months when i dont test where id get af but my boobs would grow 2 sizes and id be throwing up and id get AF and i know i was pregnant. I had kids young and didnt raise them . I always got pregnant so easily so now i dont know why i am still ttc after all this time. I havent been on birth control in many years. I realize when my kids were conceived it was bc of forgetting a pill or shortly coming off birth control. Im on the progestin pill. I plan on taking it only a short time or skipping pills to get pregnant. Anybody experience these problems and have had a successful pregnancy only around birth control. There isnt info on google about this too much i would really appreciate if somebody with information and experience about this