I'm going to flip

My boyfriend and I have been together for 4 in a half years we have a 1 month old i haven't been to my 6 week appt yet I'm still sore down there i can tell certain ways when I sit or wipe still.. well anyways

My bf has been haunting me for a month for sex I do other stuff to get him off bj , HJ , even tried anal and I hate it !! But I do it to please him. Well tonight he's like I'm gonna get a toy for myself being u can't and idt ur healed yet blah blah blah which it didn't bug me cause I suffer from painful sex and it's not fair to him and I'm doing everything I can I tried almost everything certain birth controls made me dry , positions , lubes , slow , etc nothing works.. it sucks I cry all the time over it cause I feel like a piece of shit. Well when my bf worked overnights I told him I was lonely and he just didn't do anything about it he kept telling me he was gonna look for a better paying job cause he didn't wanna work overnights anymore hr never saw me or the other 2 kids he has etc but he never did !! It got to the point where I did text someone when he wasn't here cause I was alone. I told him how much I hated being alone and etc and he would ignore me.. and now everytime we fight he throws it in my Face :( but it's okay for some other girl to flirt with him at work and bring him food at work I'm really hurt and upset im probably going to get torn up by some people he also told me he wants sex tonight tomorrow and Saturday but it's like I can't I'm not healed so I offered other things and he turns them down than throws it in my Face that I don't please him :(

He gets the toy than throws it in my Face like I TOLD HIM TO GET IT i didn't

He throws me talking to someone in my Face tells me looking bck he understands why I did it ( this was a yr ago ) and now he's like no I don't I ment I see why u felt alone.

He asks me to do stuff all the time and I will all while getting up with the baby.

I've been up with the baby every night since I had him he's gotten up 4xs maybe.

I tell him babe im. Tired so what r u gonna do stay down stairs and play ur game or come to bed what r u doing and he literally sat here with the lights on at 330 am to annoy me knowing I got to get up with the baby in a hr. And than agian at 8 to make sure he's up to put the other 2 kids ( previous relationship ) are on bus and ready for school.

I remind him and remind him and remind him to do things IMPORTANT THINGS to he dnt than gets mad when I get on him about it.

All I ask him to do is

Clean his mess

Put beer bottles in bucket

And put stuff back where it goes ... nope he don't than gets mad at me when I tell him

All day today he kept trying to hump my face get me to give him a bj. Which I did last night before bed I just been so tired with the baby I barely have time to take a shower by myself..

If the baby's crying and I'm in shower or washing his bottles or etc he will let him scream and cry in his swing or bassinet while he sits there on his phone or compt etc.

It's just like omg

It's so annoying and frustrating

Than he made a joke tonight oh the baby don't look like me

Blah blah blah like seriously ?!

Ugh advice please no bashing