double edged sword

On one hand I am so tired of breastfeeding. I don't find it to be this beautiful thing that other moms feel. I am tired of the cluster feedings, I'm tired of people not being able to help me. Then on the other hand I'm so afraid to intro pumped milk in a bottle. I'm afraid that he won't relatch if I give him a bottle once or twice a day. Not to mention that after 30 minutes of pumping I only got 1 oz of breast milk. I'm so stuck, and feeling overwhelmed. How do you ladies do it?