Can anyone relate?

every since the reality of being pregnant ..Its just like I don't like being around children in the age group 0-12...and every since I been pregnant kids cling to me and for some reason that irritates me more..I don't even want to hold or look at a baby...I get so irritated when my grandmother stops other people and tells me to look at their baby cause deep inside I don't want to...i don't like the attention from being pregnant...I don't like my belly rubbed even though Ik people are being supportive...I normally just adore children but since the sperm meet the egg I'm so opposite of myself and I feel so bad about...this pregnancy had turned me into a straight BEE-OTCH and I don't like it