Help I guess I don't know

I'm posting this anonymously because I'm not an attention seeker or anything but I wanna know what everyone's opinions on what I should do are.    Okay so, every day I'm told to kill my self and when I was ages 6-12 I was raped  and now I'm 13. I've already tried to kill myself once and I sometimes want to again. I've been seven months self harm clean but I just want to die. I hate myself and how I look and I only have like one actually friend. My boyfriend told me he loved me all the time but on Monday he dumped me and then yesterday( so hot even a week later) he was rubbing it in my face that he liked one of my close friends and he doesn't care how it makes me feel or if I kill myself because of him. He is one of the people who is telling me to kill myself daily and I wanna listen. I'm typing fast because my thoughts are going really fast so I'm sorry if there are any spelling errors or anything I just wanna know what to do.