My first negative test since...

I had a forced misscarage on Tuesday due to a baby with no heartbeat. This is the first negative test I have had sincw. I had to do it just so my mind would believe what my body was telling me. Losing my baby after 10 weeks was so hard.. but the hardest part was feeling my body transiting back to not being pregnant... boobs slowly aren't sore anymore... getting more energy... my heart is so broken. I am so scared to try again. Thank you for listening. We haven't told many people we were pregnant so it feels good to let it out. The fucked up thing is that all of this happened on the 1 year anniversary of me finding my father dead on his couch from diabetes. Okay... pitty party over. Thanks again