Cumming, Masterbation, and Climaxing Confusion 🤔

Ok, so. I have tried everything I can to climax. When I was with a guy he was hitting all the right spots and I always wanted to cum because I'd feel like I was going to go crazy if I didn't but I never do. Now I'm trying to explore myself a little more to see If I can make myself climax but everytime I try I just get bored. 😒 so now I'm wondering what I should do next to help with my issue. Guy is out of the picture now, I live alone but now I've decided to buy my first sex toys in hope that it will help. Am I crazy to buy sex toys and solo it alone? And what can I do to get myself OVER the point to climax. I'm always sooo close but I never cum. 😞 it's depressing. And my clit can only take so much...