Unable to forgive 😞

I can never forgive my mother for saying that she regrets ever having me as a child. She hates me and I see it in how she treats me. She Is a bitter woman who always tries to make a big argument out of petty things,like why did you drop the cotton wool and fail to pick it up etc. She even supports abortion and coming to think of it ,if she was able to have aborted me,she would have. I'm so unhappy I keep wondering when I will finish school and move out.