I'm not ready...

I'm about to turn 35 weeks and i get horrible panic attacks just thinking about me going into labor and the pain and the long hours... I have two children already my first labor was easy not that painful i actually went full natural nor medicine or epidural , with my second baby i got induced and it was HORRIBLEEEE i felt like i was literally dying , i was alone. The pain was unbearable (nothing compared to my first) and i think i kind of got traumatized cause now i get terrible panic attacks and i just cry and cry because im so scared and idk what to do to stop feeling this way... Theres days were im so ready to have this baby but most of the time im scared and i scare myself more because i panic 😞😞😞 anyone ever felt this way ? How can i make myself not feel this way ? I want to feel ready because im not ...