*Extremely long* I need someone to be honest and real to me. Give me some advice please...

I am 19 years old. I was in a seven year relationship with my now ex boyfriend. We started off as friends then we became best friends to boyfriend and girlfriend. From sixth grade to a year later after we graduated together. I am from Orlando and he is from Fort Myers but we both went to this private school out of town. Anyways the whole time we were together nothing sexual happened I mean we kissed, made out, and he has hold my breast before but nothing else because we both were virgins at the time we were together. Because we wanted to save ourselves for marriage and that's something we both wanted to it was optional not because that's what our parents wanted. But eventually as time went on and we got older we decided that we love each other and we know for a fact that we are going to marry each other and have lil babies. So when he bring up the conversation about having sex I was down like hell yea let's do this. It was set we were going to do it I was excited but nervous at the same time cause I don't know to we are both virgins it's going to be so awkward. A few weeks later we decided to break up because we both was going through a lot of shit to where we didn't really have time for each other. I'm just going to get to the point cause I don't want to bore you guys. So we break we haven't talked and seen each other in about two months. One day I get a DM from this guy on Instagram and he was like I know you. And I'm thinking who the is this I don't know and if I did I would know yours and you would know mine. So he spent like five minutes trying to explain to me that he knows me. And eventually it comes back to. So I he gave me his number and I blocked him on Instagram. We talk for about a week. Then he asked me to meet up with him so I was like where at he was like where you live I told him then he told where he lives come to find out we live five minutes away from each other. He is from New York btw.We meet up at like two in the morning. We hung we talk a little then he asked for another hug and while we are hugging his right hand reached down towards my vagina and he starts fingering me. I have never had that done before and it felt so gooooood. So for about five minutes he is fingering me and we kissing each other. And he could tell I was a virgin cause how I was acting while he was fingering me and I came on his fingers and that's when we had to stop. Even though I haven't known him for a long time I kinda felt comfortable doing that with him. So left home to take a shower cause I was wet asf. I am astonished as hell for a lot of reasons but anyway. A couple weeks pass by and he invite me to his apartment I'm scared but not really because he still kinda a stranger to me he picks me up and he is talking to me I'm not talking at all because I'm thinking what we going to be doing so loosen up and act normal we get to the house he escort me to his room and I sit on the bed. I'm thinking like I hope this boy don't think we are fixing to fuck. So he leaves out and does something while I watch TV. It took him to long to come back so I fell asleep one cause it's seven in the morning and he bed is comfortable. Anyways we had sex a lost my virginity to this guy I didn't even love and I was so heart broken because I still and will always love my ex no matter what. Because you can't erase seven years with someone especially seven good ones. But the thing is in my head I was going to leave him because I didn't not want to lose my virginity to someone I barely knew and didn't love. I stayed because one the sex was and is so good he is close by me so we can always see each other. And I am growing to love him but I still love my ex I never really told him what happened between us I just said we couldn't agree on anything anymore so he left it at that. So I was in the mall one day and I saw my ex and we just stared at each other you can definitely tell the love is still there. He came up he spoke I spoke and we hugged each for a long time. Then we walked around the mall and started talking and laughing just reminiscing about old times. We went out to eat and dropped me off home. And it was the best ever... I had totally forgotten about my boyfriend. And didn't feel no type of way about the situation either. My ex doesn't know about the new guy and neither will I tell him because we have been talking to each every other day. I don't know what to do. I still love my ex but I'm getting to love my current boyfriend. With my ex we have history and chemistry and real true love and with my dude it was a hormonal thing that's getting to what it's supposed to be. But tbh I feel like how it led me having sex with my new guy was built up hormones and being horny all the damn time and really not releasing it cause I don't finger myself. So where you guys come in at is to what the hell I am supposed to do I will take all of your opinions into consideration.