almost negative

Who would have thought I'd ever be happy to almost be at a negative when tested for pregnancy hormones? This to me is almost the beginning to trying again. It gives me hope because I'm almost healed, and I feel incredibly lucky that it has been so quick after miscarrying naturally at 12 weeks. On October 16th I lost my first pregnancy, and today my hcg levels are down from 340 last Friday to 53 today. On October 4th they were at 30,000, not nearly high enough for 9w3d at that time. By the end of this month this ordeal will be over. The pain and grief will never subside but there is a glimmer of hope. Here's to TTC again and praying the next baby lives 💗